Today has been spent, so far, sitting around my house on a birthing ball waiting for this little boy to arrive. I’m bored, my body hurts, & I’m impatient.
And yes… I’ve done all the nesting.
As much as I’ve thoroughly enjoyed making my lists & checking them twice (okay, let’s be real: TWENTY times)… there’s nothing else to do now but wait. I’m just so ready for this to be over.
But, as much as I feel like I’m ready to do this… I’m also overwhelmed. I don’t know what to expect, or if I will be any good at this. Sometimes I let the worries creep in that this is all I will be doing for the next thirty years – that I will become boring, useless & lose my purpose.
A few years ago, I was studying the book of Leviticus in a Bible school. Reading through all the laws that God makes for the Israelites for their “normal” routine, I realized that there must be something holy about the “normal”. If God gives instructions to us about how to live a holy & normal life, it must be possible to do both.
Therefore, it must not be a cop-out to want to be a mommy. In fact, it must be….holy?
And though I’m not quite a momma yet, I know from watching some of the wonderful role models around me, that it’s not always easy…and it sure doesn’t always seem like a holy endeavor. But, if God has led me to something & chosen a path for my life, then there must be joy in it. Even more – there must be something eternal in it!
Psalm 16:11 “You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”
Right now, God has given me a husband, a home & a child. My mission is to find the eternal things – the mission field – the immense joy that God wants to give me – in what some would see as the mundane routine of a mother, wife & home-maker.
I believe that God has things so big for each of his children to accomplish & experience in this life, and he also has jobs for us to complete. Praying that God will give me the wisdom to live each day of this life on a mission to live it to his glory.
Ecclesiastes 8:5, 15 & 9:10 “The wise heart will know the proper time & procedure… joy will accompany him in his work all the days of his life… Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might.”